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Daniel Craig's James Bond Series

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Nostalgia recently drove me to revisit Pierce Brosnan’s Bond films. Growing up, I watched those DVDs almost everyday. Back then, I thought they were the pinnacle of action cinema. However, while rewatching them now, I struggled to even get through the second film. It was far "cheesier" than I remembered. I realized that perhaps I’ve outgrown that era of 007. Life is too short to force yourself through movies you no longer enjoy, so I decided to abort the mission and pivot to Daniel Craig’s run instead. I first saw the first one of the series -  Casino Royale - in my uni years, and I remember being struck by how much grittier, rougher, and more action-packed Craig’s Bond was compared to the polished charm of Brosnan. I never had the chance to watch all five so I guess, this is the time.  As I mentioned before, I watched Casino Royale during my uni years which is decades ago and therefore I barely remember the movie. I can recall the tone and mood but I forgot about the specif...
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Fate/stay night

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Recently, I have been diving into the world of anime. I'm honestly not an anime guy. I do read a lot of manga but being a fully functioning adult, I don't really have the time to be fully committed to anime. I mean, with manga, I can just finish a chapter within a few minutes but an episode of anime would take around 15 to 30 minutes to watch. However, I now have the urge to start something new and anime was the most accessible door to knock on.  I watched some clips of Fate/stay night on TikTok and was intrigued to watch the whole series. I did watch some episodes during my university semester breaks years and years ago but I didn't have the chance to finish the series because there were no streaming platforms back then. I watched those episodes on Astro TV where each episode came out weekly. There were no binge watching back then, no skipping the intro and outro, just an agonizing wait for new episodes weekly.  To summarize the story for those who are not familiar with th...
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Wishlist

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The stuff mention here would be things that I WANT but not what I currently NEED so I won't probably be getting them soon because I am a responsible adult.  First on the wishlist would be a motorcycle. Well, I do have a motorcycle now which is an old Honda EX5 that I inherited from my late father. It serves me well but if I suddenly got transferred to another workplace which would drastically change my daily commute, I would definitely be replacing it with a new and more reliable motorcycle. The possibility of being transferred to another workplace is I would say quite high because last year I applied for kenaikan pangkat and now waiting for the result. Therefore, this WANT may turn to be a NEED depending on the result.  Okay, so I'm not a 'motorcycle guy' who keep myself up-to-date with motorcycle stuff engine performance, parts, torques and whatnot. I just want a really cool looking motorcycle and it doesn't have to be a powerful one.  The one I got my eye on righ...
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Hello Darkness My Old Friend

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The above image generated by Gemini seems to perfectly describe how I am feeling right now. I feel like I am sitting at a corner of a dark room. I can see silhouettes of people doing things in the darkness - talking to each other, laughing - and how I long join them, be a part of them. However, there's a huge feeling of estrangement within that has been stopping me from moving away from the dimly lit corner.  It’s the paradox of the introvert. The "dimly lit corner" is not just my fortress, but it’s also my cage. I can see the warmth of the silhouettes, I can hear the frequency of their connection, but there is a language barrier  made of static that keeps me pinned to the floor. This feeling of estrangement is a thick glass wall. I am not shy . I just feel fundamentally different, as if other people are operating on a software that I never downloaded.  It wasn't always like this. Some time ago, my best friend pulled me out of that dimly lit corner into the darkness....
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Tips Sebelum Kahwin / Pesanan Kepada Yang Sudah Berkahwin

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Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera diucapkan kepada semua pembaca.  Saya bukannya ustaz atau pakar dalam bidang kekeluargaan. Tujuan saya menulis ini adalah untuk peringatan kepada diri saya sendiri. Saya fikir, daripada simpan sendirian, adalah lebih baik untuk saya sampaikan kepada orang ramai agar boleh menjadi pedoman.  I actually have rehearsed telling this to people too many times. Every time a friend is about to get married, I prepare myself for the question, "Fahmi, ada tak tips yang aku patut tahu sebelum kahwin?"  However, being the introvert and sort of anti-social that I am, the chance for me to share tips or stories never came. Therefore, here I am, sitting alone, writing it down here.  Like I mentioned, I am not an expert in relationship and all but for those who don't know, I have been married since 11 November 2011. There are ups and so many downs in my marriage but I am still married so maybe you can learn a thing or two from me. Be...
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I Hate Dogs

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Today I was chased by a pack of stray dogs. It was around 5.00 am and I woke up early to do my laundry at a nearby coin self service laundromat. I always do my laundry at this hour because I won't have to wait for other people to use the washing machines.  Oh, forgot to mention that I go to the laundromat because my washing machine is broken and it costs a lot to fix it.  So, after I finished loading my clothes into the machines, I thought it would be a good idea to walk to a mamak place nearby.  I made my journey by foot and halfway there, I noticed a big dog approaching me.  Lets get this clear, I usually keep my cool when it comes to stray dogs because I remember someone saying that dogs would only chase if you run.  I kept calm and continued walking.  When the dog was around one meter away from me, it suddenly let out a huge bark. It was not a friendly bark. Following the bark was a bit of a growl.  I was freakin' ner...
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I Miss Having Friends

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As an introvert, I have been spending a lot of time being alone. I go to movies alone, I eat meals alone and I walk around alone and it is fine. The solitude has never felt lonely and it is often calming.  However, it doesn't mean that I don't enjoy the company of friends. In fact, I love going out with people. You might argue that I seem more of an ambivert than introvert but the fact that I have been spending most of my time alone more than with people would make me stand on the idea of me being mostly an introvert.  I guess even though I'm an introvert, I am still a normal human being and we all know that humans are social creatures. Being alone all the time would make someone go crazy. As much as I enjoy my time alone in a fortress of solitude, I think I would go insane if I don't interact with people at all.  Lately I have been feeling a lot of pressure from family and work and at this kind of moment that I realize how much I need a friend. I found ...
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