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The above image generated by Gemini seems to perfectly describe how I am feeling right now. I feel like I am sitting at a corner of a dark room. I can see silhouettes of people doing things in the darkness - talking to each other, laughing - and how I long join them, be a part of them. However, there's a huge feeling of estrangement within that has been stopping me from moving away from the dimly lit corner.  It’s the paradox of the introvert. The "dimly lit corner" is not just my fortress, but it’s also my cage. I can see the warmth of the silhouettes, I can hear the frequency of their connection, but there is a language barrier  made of static that keeps me pinned to the floor. This feeling of estrangement is a thick glass wall. I am not shy . I just feel fundamentally different, as if other people are operating on a software that I never downloaded.  It wasn't always like this. Some time ago, my best friend pulled me out of that dimly lit corner into the darkness....

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera diucapkan kepada semua pembaca.  Saya bukannya ustaz atau pakar dalam bidang kekeluargaan. Tujuan saya menulis ini adalah untuk peringatan kepada diri saya sendiri. Saya fikir, daripada simpan sendirian, adalah lebih baik untuk saya sampaikan kepada orang ramai agar boleh menjadi pedoman.  I actually have rehearsed telling this to people too many times. Every time a friend is about to get married, I prepare myself for the question, "Fahmi, ada tak tips yang aku patut tahu sebelum kahwin?"  However, being the introvert and sort of anti-social that I am, the chance for me to share tips or stories never came. Therefore, here I am, sitting alone, writing it down here.  Like I mentioned, I am not an expert in relationship and all but for those who don't know, I have been married since 11 November 2011. There are ups and so many downs in my marriage but I am still married so maybe you can learn a thing or two from me. Be...

Today I was chased by a pack of stray dogs. It was around 5.00 am and I woke up early to do my laundry at a nearby coin self service laundromat. I always do my laundry at this hour because I won't have to wait for other people to use the washing machines.  Oh, forgot to mention that I go to the laundromat because my washing machine is broken and it costs a lot to fix it.  So, after I finished loading my clothes into the machines, I thought it would be a good idea to walk to a mamak place nearby.  I made my journey by foot and halfway there, I noticed a big dog approaching me.  Lets get this clear, I usually keep my cool when it comes to stray dogs because I remember someone saying that dogs would only chase if you run.  I kept calm and continued walking.  When the dog was around one meter away from me, it suddenly let out a huge bark. It was not a friendly bark. Following the bark was a bit of a growl.  I was freakin' ner...

As an introvert, I have been spending a lot of time being alone. I go to movies alone, I eat meals alone and I walk around alone and it is fine. The solitude has never felt lonely and it is often calming.  However, it doesn't mean that I don't enjoy the company of friends. In fact, I love going out with people. You might argue that I seem more of an ambivert than introvert but the fact that I have been spending most of my time alone more than with people would make me stand on the idea of me being mostly an introvert.  I guess even though I'm an introvert, I am still a normal human being and we all know that humans are social creatures. Being alone all the time would make someone go crazy. As much as I enjoy my time alone in a fortress of solitude, I think I would go insane if I don't interact with people at all.  Lately I have been feeling a lot of pressure from family and work and at this kind of moment that I realize how much I need a friend. I found ...

Pada beberapa minggu yang lepas, sewaktu memandu, saya perasan yang terdapat satu bunyi pelik pada kereta saya - Proton Saga FLX. Bunyinya seperti benda bergesel. Shhhht shhhht shhhhht dan bunyi itu hanya ada semasa kereta bergerak.  Lantas, saya hubungi rakan pensyarah Politeknik saya, Hilmi, untuk bertanya tentangnya. Hilmi meminta saya untuk membawa kereta ke bengkel Jabatan Kejuteraan Mekanikal Politeknik Port Dickson untuk pemeriksaan lebih terperinci.  Untuk pengetahuan semua, Politeknik yang menawarkan kursus Kejuruteraan Mekanikal kebanyakkannya membuka bengkel mereka untuk orang awam. Contohnya di Politeknik Port Dickson, tempat saya bekerja, bengkel dibuka kepada semua bagi tujuan penyelenggaraan dan pembaikian masalah masalah kenderaan yang kurang serius. Bengkel ini juga menawarkan khidmat basuh kereta. Semua kerja kerja bengkel dilakukan oleh para pelajar Politeknik di bawah pemantauan dan tunjuk ajar pensyarah.  Setelah sampai di bengkel, Hilmi ...

Hello guys. A little bit of background before I go on about Raid: Shadow Legends .  I started playing gacha games just a couple of months ago and the first that I tried was Fire Emblem Heroes  (FEH). I immediately fell in love with concept of gacha because of the hero collecting concept. After a few days, I then tried Valiant Force which I felt is quite better than FEH in terms of artwork and gameplay. However, Valiant Force just celebrated its second anniversary and for me, it means that the game is rather old and not the latest trend. Besides, the 3D artwork is not as beautiful as its 2D ones. The chibi look of the 3D artwork felt rather childish for me. Because of that, no matter how much I liked Valiant Force, I had to let it go to search for other games that suit my taste.  After trying so many top gacha games like Epic Seven, Azur Lane, Dragalia Lost, Honkai Impact and etc, I finally came to a conclusion that Raid: Shadow Legends is the best gacha gam...